I still can't believe I'm pregnant sometimes. It's such a surreal feeling to look in the mirror and see my stomach bulging and my belly button fighting to maintain its presence. I feel so great and can hardly remember the misery of the first trimester. This is why people have so many kids--you forget how terrible the terrible things about pregnancy are and quickly dwell in the little kicks you feel throughout the day and knowing that God is forming a new person to add to this world--the other stuff just seems trivial. This whole process is truly beyond my scope of comprehension, but I am so very grateful to be allowed this time.
I have been a little stressed though and last night's sermon really hit home for me. I know I have 4 more months and will get everything done, but the more things that I seem to add to my plate, the more I worry about what isn't done, whether it's design projects, nursery things, work to-do lists, etc., all of it together has me feeling very heavy. Thankfully I have my very own live-in counselor to get me through my semi-panic attacks, and I go to a church that helps me realign my anxiousness and realize that I should be turning to my primary Counselor first and foremost. A few things that made me think twice about my stresses that were talked about last night:
- "In the kingdom of God, we get to know the king."
- "Don't give into emotional reactions--ask the Lord first."
- "In prayer, remind God of who He is, tell Him what's going on, explain how you feel about it, and wait/listen on the Lord."
- "Even His silence is a response."
- "Boldly approach His throne of grace with confidence."
- "Live at His feet."